Irma
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Aren't we all lamas really...on the inside?
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Post by Irma on Jun 21, 2012 11:04:06 GMT -5
Nothing that's what. And no problem. I am an angel after all. 0:-)
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Post by Caleb/Cedric on Jun 21, 2012 11:05:21 GMT -5
Alright then, let's leave this place as well. I'd love to hear from Elyon too though, maybe we can plot ahead a bit.
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Irma
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Aren't we all lamas really...on the inside?
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Post by Irma on Jun 21, 2012 11:26:47 GMT -5
We'll see how things go. Give it some time.
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Post by Caleb/Cedric on Jun 21, 2012 15:33:46 GMT -5
Aren't people generally short on time? As in, lives are too short. I guess it works out somehow - it's better to go out before it starts to drag, right? Some old people can look very depressing with their deep, painful eyes just staring at nothing. Still, the feeling of life slipping away every day, the feeling in the gut that you didn't get to live your life to the fullest today... Every time I come close to death (or imagine it being so), I start thinking about all the things I should've done but didn't do. Heck, I'm twenty already, I should be living on my own or maybe with my own family and writing book after book, coming closer to my dream. Or whatever. The more time you take to think things through, the less you actually do. It's been haunting me my whole life, this indecisiveness and inability to act. What other people take as a given, I rethink dozens of times and then I just end up being paralyzed by fear. You must understand what I'm talking about. It's like practicing, reciting a speech over and over and when the time comes to actually speak, your words lack sincerity and feeling and you stumble over and over. It's best to just do things, right? Didn't the Joker say "I just do things?" That he did.
You have to understand, of course, that this is all a load of bs. I'll wait for as long as it takes, maybe even try to grow a beard while I'm at it. But you know. For a while I've been self-studying psychology and there's a great statement about it. Life won't wait while you maintain your status quo. And that's right. Everybody moves on and you stay there, like you were late for your train or something. You wait for the next one, but it's full of people you don't know. Your life is somewhere ahead and you'll never be able to catch up anymore, because how is one train supposed to get ahead of the other on the same d**n tracks? It's how life works. Our parents are lost, our children are a grim reminder of our own fleeting time. The same thing can apply to this place (I'm not really saying anything surprising here). People may have left or moved on because of the lack of progress, because the place just stuck at a train stop, instead moving onward. Coming from me, this may sound like hypocrisy, but don't get me wrong. If you'd have left me behind to keep the place alive, I would have accepted this as an inevitable development and totally fair judgement. It happens to most of us at some point - being left behind. But I come back and I see that nothing's really changed all that much. It gives me relief and happiness to see that I can still fit in (hopefully, I haven't gained the approval of others yet), but thinking from a selfless point of view... Well, I guess you understand what I'm talking about. While I'm at the bottom of the sh**list, I might as well say what's on my mind. I said similar things some time ago, before leaving. Even though I couldn't express myself as clearly back then due to various circumstances, it worked out in the end. Somewhat. You know what I'm talking about, Irma.
...This wasn't supposed to be anything serious, but it ended up being it anyway. Feel free (I mean it) to ignore what I've said, it'd be fair treatment. What I'm saying is... I miss the old times, I guess. I can't help but try bringing them back, you know? I can't help myself, with all the free time on my hands.
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Irma
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Post by Irma on Jun 21, 2012 16:11:03 GMT -5
Alrighty...I think you're taking things a bit too seriously. I'm finding it hard to figure out quite how all of this fits into RPing. Just calm down. You can't expect things to be the same way they were years ago. We don't actively RP here much anymore. I get that is what you loved about this place and that you want to bring that back. I'm sure that we would all love to have the good ol days back when we had all the time in the world to just sit back and post here but it's not really possible anymore. Sad I know but true. We can try to bring the RPing back in some shape or form but you have to be patient. I know patience is a useless virtue to you but you can't expect that after a day of being back that the RP is going to be revived because you want it to be. Things don't work like that. Honestly you are acting just like you were when you left. I'm sorry if that sounds mean but it's true. People aren't going to want to talk to you if you go off on 2-3 paragraph long rants that seem to be mostly irrelevant to the subject at hand. So just chill out, go post in the chats section, get to know us all again. But things won't be much fun and you won't gain anyone's trust if you continue like this.
I don't know how many times I have to tell you all of this...this must be at least the 3rd time in the past 2 days. So just please listen to me and calm down. Otherwise it is going to have the opposite effect of what you want; people will come here less instead of more. I really don't want to relive the days where it was stressful coming on here and everyone was arguing. I just want everyone who comes on here to get along and for everyone to be happy, calm and just plain have a blast here. You're not helping this cause.
I'm sorry if it sounds like I'm being harsh. I'm honestly just trying to help. I'm also sorry if I was egging you on or confusing you yesterday by acting like nothing has changed. I guess I got caught up in the moment myself. I was ready to just forget everything yesterday and just hope that you were a changed person but you're showing that you still go off like this...it's hard to trust that you won't go completely off again like you did last time.
Again sorry if this seems too harsh. I really hope you don't take it to heart. I just don't want any arguments to be started. I hope this post doesn't make you want to leave again or anything but I felt it needed to be said. I'd love for you to stay and win all of our trust back. You just need to chill out for once.
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Post by Caleb/Cedric on Jun 21, 2012 19:38:12 GMT -5
Honestly, I was just screwing around. Call it my way of messing with you. I'll edit the post as soon as I read yours.
Edit: Gee, you sure took it seriously. Wish my gf-to-be would do that sometime. But honest, I just tried a different approach to bs. Or maybe an old one. You know how eventually you start looking for different, unconventional ways to talk to people, to a point where you don't speak normally anymore. It's either sarcasm, friendly insults or black humor. I'll definitely write more depressing rants in the future, so be ready.
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Irma
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Post by Irma on Jun 21, 2012 22:22:25 GMT -5
Well screwing around like that isn't going to earn you any trust. People will start getting fed up with you and not know when to take you seriously or not. Because that rant above was just like the d**n rants you sent me through PM. How am I supposed to tell the difference? It's not like when we poke fun at each other as it's obious that is just a joke. And I won't be reading any of your depressive rants.
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Post by Caleb/Cedric on Jun 22, 2012 8:52:30 GMT -5
Aye aye, I get the message. I can't help being overdramatic, it's just rooted in too deep within me. And they say that reading books is good for you.
Anyway, you can calm down and become complacent now, so I can shock you again in near future.
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Irma
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Post by Irma on Jun 22, 2012 9:38:04 GMT -5
You won't be getting any shock out of me anymore. Or advice. I've said what I was going to say already. And if you go on one of your depressive rants I'll probably just ignore it. ;D
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Post by Caleb/Cedric on Jun 22, 2012 10:59:02 GMT -5
We'll see about that. I'll try to be more convincing next time.
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Irma
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Post by Irma on Jun 22, 2012 13:29:50 GMT -5
Oh so try to screw with everyone even more? That's trustworthy. Now I won't believe or trust anything you say. Have fun talking to yourself. If you go on these fake rants and try and create drama every will just ignore you.
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Post by Caleb/Cedric on Jun 22, 2012 14:15:12 GMT -5
Come on, ease up. Can't you take an unwelcome, confusing, hard to understand, unfunny joke every once in a while?
Oh, and to stay on topic: have you ever thought about picking an additional character? Since our numbers aren't exactly great, it shouldn't be too much of a problem. I'm not asking you to do it, I'm not trying to rush things, I'm merely curious.
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Irma
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Aren't we all lamas really...on the inside?
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Post by Irma on Jun 23, 2012 16:20:51 GMT -5
Whatever. Just know next time you go on one of those rants you won't be getting any reaction out of me. It does matter if the rant is serious or not. I wouldn't choose another character permanently. I would only sub for someone for a while until someone else came along who either needed a character or was playing a more minor character and they wanted to become more active in the RP.
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Post by Caleb/Cedric on Jun 23, 2012 17:08:14 GMT -5
Yeah, that's what I'm talking about. Whatever it takes, you know?
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Post by Caleb/Cedric on Jun 25, 2012 16:45:49 GMT -5
I know I'm annoying, but let me say this. I don't think this is an issue of trust. I may be untrustworthy at the moment, but how exactly does that put me in the wrong when I'm just trying to help out? If I'd spend three months logging in every day and leaving a comment or two (which is what I'm planning to do anyway), maybe that'd make me trustworthy but that wouldn't help the forum in the slightest.
The situation now is purely a matter of action. If an action would be taken, things might just start moving forward. If not... the integrity of the storyline will become completely irrelevant, seeing how there won't be enough people (or any people) to even notice that in the first place.
By the way, I'd really like others to share their thoughts with me too, so it wouldn't become just another case of me getting on Irma's nerves.
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